Just thinking.

Just thinking, the kids are with Mike this weekend and here it is snowing. Fun. First snow without the kids...kinda saddening :/  This weekend is already starting out to be fabulous.

From the mouth of.......AVA

 So Sunday night Ava asked to sleep with big sister Drew. Drew uncomfortably says yes, because sometimes Ava pees the bed. Monday morning the kids are playing Im dressing for work and Ava marches in my room in full Cinderella gear with a mad look upon her princess face. This is what she says:

Ava: MOM! Drew says I smell like farts......and I DONT! I smell like PEE!
Drew: PEE! what? MOM!!!
Ava: What? I didnt pee in your bed, just in my underwear....jeesh.

life at berthas.

                        This is a schedule pic from last year.. take a close look...

               Probably my favorite guy to work with...sorry fella's

                                Men's bathroom...looks much better from outside.....

 How do we beat the Monday blues? Dutch Russians that is...

The mayor of Fells...Bob. I showed him this pic and he asked me who it was? Haha...

                                               Boss

 This is my daily companion throughout the day shift. Luckily he speaks alot of english, loves getting hickeys and thinks i'm numero uno!

                                                                               This is me..

                                                              Resident sexual harrasser.

Leaves

 Lilly loves my house! As soon as I see her she says in her above average soon to be 2 year old voice ' Wanna go over Jenn's house" . I took this in November on a nice day with the falling leaves. She probably felt like Beyonces baby bump with me and the camera. Haha..but I got some really good shots. I love this little girl and her big round head and over flowing crazy hair. The way she holds her arm when she runs and squishes up her cute little face when she laughs.  You will see tons of pics of this one...my favorite little Lilly.

Lesson Learned

I'm annoyed today so this may come off as a rant.  Whatever. Take as it as you will , I have my period and I'm grumpy. My vehicle gives me nothing but problems. Its one of those ' you can not rely on your car' car. It makes sounds, jerks, kicks, smells, doesnt run, shreeeks, squeels...you name it. It does it. It annoys me. Its been in the shop since friday. So ive been relying on friends and family for transportation. Fun huh, yeah you can only imagine having your mom and pop drive you and your three kids places. You definetly realize having a car, even a unreliable one is a luxury.

I hate days like these, ones that you plan to be productive and good yet get f-ed by small hiccups like your car not done in the shop. My friend told me tonight i need a lesson in ' coping' . Coping-- really? Because as he says ' its just a car' . Really what a girl on day 2 of her period wants to hear...you need a lesson in coping. Pssssh.

The kids are with their dad tonight, its Tuesday so i have a quiet house to my self. Nights like these i find myself wandering through the house...looking for stuff to do, kids to talk to , yell at ....i sweep like a dozen times. Talk to my cat, who is pregnant by the way. Nipples galore! I talk to the tv, laugh loudly and obnoxiously. Try to relax on the couch but can't. Squirm all around...enjoy the quiet but miss the chaoz.

Did I ever tell you i love the show Tori and Dean Home Sweet Hollywood? Well guess what, i do . I love it. I even more love sTORIbook weddings. Guess i Love Tori Spelling.  Maybe i just love her family life. I love those adorbale kids and her ever so warm and loving Dean McDermott Hubby.  I love her candiness and honestly.  Well that was on tonight, I kinda wish it was on at 8 on a monday so the girls could watch it with me. Instead i watch it alone , recording it so tomorrow morning when returning home from daddy's we can watch it together before school...they LOVE it more then i do.  Its becoming a little girl time for us. A little Tori Time. We learn new crafts and food ideas, decorating tips, style tips...shit, maybe Tori can teach me a bit about coping? Lesson learned Miss Spelling.

      
              "I’m looking for love.
                      Real love.
Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming,   can’t-live-without-each-other love.”

                Carrie Bradshaw
     ~ and that about sums me up.

From the mouth of.......AVA

Ok so my 5 year old Ava says the most hysterical things. As does her sister Kaya. So i will start blogging the things they say. They will be titled From the mouth of..... today we had a great day spent with our fabulous neighbors, but like all great days...bath time nears and we must clean up. After about 16 ' Ava! You need to clean up...we need to go home's ' she says in front of everyone " Mom--- can't you just be PATIENT!"   Gotta love it.

Some of my faves...

Newly divorced, well almost..I looked back at some photos and had a huge overflow of memories. I will admit my marriage in theory was not a bad one. My relationship with my husband just wasnt a great one. I settled for less than I wanted for many years but I will alwasy cherish my children and our family and the memories we will always share. Eventhough I am sure he does not feel the same. I found this disc of many pics from when the girls were little. I can't believe how much these girls have grown. Its really sad because time is flying by... here are a few memories I'd like to share...some of my faves!

Football Season

So..I am a Baltimore Raven Football fan, hence the purple. Ive always been a football fan but the past two years Ive become a huge football and sports fan! My friends are all crazy football fans so I have so many funny stories that I wanna share! Ive been to tons of games the past two years, I'm pretty lucky Ive been able to go to so many but ive got some friends with some great seats! I went to the first game of the season on September 11 against the Steelers. HUGE game-- so excited! My friend Sam and I are so psyched for this. Plan to tailgate, get new jerseys...I make 215 jello shooters! All purple! The morning of this game we leave to tailgate...with about 15 people, mostly people , guys we work with. I start pounding jello shots like its my JOB. Friends advising me to eat but I dont....Im feeling fine at this point , ive lost count of the shots but they are pretty good. Walking into the stadium Im feeling good still. Get to our seats which are real GOOD by the way. They bring this huge flag out on the field in remembernce of Sept 11...its pretty amazing, emotional.  As i stand i start to get woozy. Like....real woozy....So i sit. I feel pretty nauseous so i walk to the bathroom. Immedialty start puking in the hallway...like...massive. Run , while im puking in my hand....puke my guts up, literally... ribs feel like they are breaking, stomach is feeling like a black hole. Leaning against the bathroom wall i gather myself up and walk back . Sam is gone, so i sit alone. I realize its like almost halftime, how long was i gone? Good lord, the nausea came back that quick...i rise out of my seat and feel the puke in my throat, shit not again...Running to the bathroom...puking in my hand again...i jump in front of about 50 drunk chicks...who obviously get pissed..to run and steal the next available stall to lose about 10 lbs of throw up AGAIN! Not realizing im in this bathroom FOREVER...the attendant comes to the unlocked half open stall door to rub my back and ask if i'm ok. I clean my self up, pick up the foam finger ive been carrying around and walk out. I decide to eat something. Chicken tenders, that'll do it. As im eating and swaying I see my boss's brother who decides to walk me to my seat.  No Sam again...so i sit alone and eat my tenders. Somehow i get popcorn also and later Sam returns. APparenlty i scared alot of people with my dissapearance and she had been searching for me. The game ends and my head is spinning but my stomach is better. We meet up with my friends and co workers who all laugh at me and think i'm crazy. A couple guys saw me earlier walking around, wandering....with my foam finger pointing at my throw up stains, some saw me running...some heard some women complaining about me in the bathroom. Needless to say I made a complete fool of myself, wasted a wonderful ticket to a freaking awesome game...missed all but like 20 mins of the game and made myself a complete and utter mess.  Here are a few memories.,,,

2012

Starting this 2012 I have made a few changes, first and foremost I broke up with Facebook. It was a big step but a good one. FB made me crazy-- my ex husband got one and blah blah. Annoying. So i deleted it. My theory is if you want to get ahold of me or see how im doing- you will find me. You have my number and you can text me, you can also email me. After like a week I started going thru some sort of socail media withdrawl, also started getting texts from friends saying they missed my humor and stories about my kids!  I missed expressing my feelings too! and I missed Celebrity GOSSIP majorly! So i joined Twitter! I love Twitter, its easy and fun and I also read Tweets from all my favorite Celebs! I'm really hoping That Tori Spelling will see what a huge fan I am of hers and her hubbys show and retweet me! haha! Maybe? I also realized that --- I had this blog that i rarley use! What am i thinking, this blog is the perfect way to express so much! So ive decided that I am going to blog weekly! I'm saying weekly because I HOPE to blog daily but I am not sure that can happen! I also want to start documenting funny things my kids are saying and doing! I need a way to keep these memories, especially the funny ones!  So today I am vowing this blog is going to be good. Keep reading!